1 year………Oh how I miss you….

18 04 2011

Brigette, I can’t believe it has been 1 year. Oh how I miss you so much.  Many of the days are so long, but the year has flown by.  Your smile is missed, your voice is missed, your energy is missed, your meer presence in a room is missed.  You are dearly missed.  These past few weeks have been so hard….remembering all that had gone on.  The count down to Maryland birth….the amazing birth…wow, such a sweet little girl.  Then only 2 week later your life ending, your smile gone from us on Earth forever.  Your girls are so beautiful. I am so thankful for Facebook, Bobby keeps us all updated with pics and cute quotes.  Montana is so big!  I can’t believe he is 10 years old nad what a baseball player he is.

Brigette, there are so many things I don’t understand about life.  One of those is the life of a very young mother with 3 children leaving this world.  Things I do know are…God is good, God is in control and we live in a fallen world with lots of pain and tears.  The realities of this make me want to see Heaven that much more. 

Brigette, you are missed. YOu are loved and you were an amazing mother and wife.    So many days I just sit and think of our times together and how much I long to hear your very happy voice on the other end of the phone. I love you and miss you!

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Date Night….12 dates in 12 months!!!! :)

19 02 2011

Dave and I have decided to do a date a month this year…..we would love more time together, but with Dave’s crazy work schedule we needed  to make a plan. 🙂

So, we are on Month 2….and we spent our date night in the ER.  Not only for a little while, but the whole next day too.  Dave was feeling ill the other day and kept saying he was fine.  Just a stomach ache.  No big deal he said…..but after a while it got worse….and worse.  I checked him out and told him I thought he was having a Appendicitis.  He didn’t think so, but after it was getting worse he went in.  After a Cat Scan they saw that it was for sure his Appendix and maybe an abscess.  (Which means it was leaking or about to rupture). 

We were at a smaller hospital so they had to call in the whole OR unit.  By 1 am they had finished the surgery and he was in recovery.

He is resting well and at home now.  He is off from UPS for 2 weeks, but will be able to get work done for the church from home.  We are so thankful in so many ways, God is so good. 🙂  His hand was in this and how things worked out.  Please pray for Dave as he is recovering, he is in a lot of pain at the moment.

Next month he better not try to top it. 🙂





Life….Mother’s Day

7 05 2010

LIfe…..it isn’t always easy….it isn’t always fun…….it sometimes the most amazing thing…..sometimes you are at a loss for words…..sometimes you just don’t know what to do….sometimes everything just comes so easy…..sometimes life is just plain HARD.

Yes, it is Mother’s Day weekend!  Now, why would I start a post off like this on Mother’s Day?  Well, that is how I am feeling.  It has only been about 2 weeks sence Brigette was buried.  Her life is so fresh in my mind.  Her children’s faces are still etched in my mind.  Holding sweet Maryland is so fresh in my mind, she is such a sweet baby let me tell you.  It was looking in Brigette’s face!  Oh, what a joy that was.

Life….is well, life.  There will be some very hard days, weeks and years at times.   This year is one of those.  Tears flow from my face as I write this.  Brigette’s death will be a moment in my life…it will be a sad time for me.  But for her children it will shape who they will be!  It will become an event that will mark everything they ever do!  They will always wonder what she was like, her smile, her laugh, her joy.  This Mother’s Day I can only think about what it must be like for them.

This moment in my life is pushing me to be a better mommy.  Brigette’s memory is living on in my children as well.  She was one of the most amazing mamas I have ever known.  She loved her children more and did soooo much with her little ones.  She was kind and gentle.  She was sweet and loving.  She was fun and creative.  She loved being a mommy!   This makes me wonder about myself as a mommy.  Do I show how much I love it to my children?  or do I complain about the laundry or the chores?  I want my children to know they are the most amazing gifts from God. I want them to know that I love them, that I care of them ( not because I have to, but because I love doing this job called mommy!).

I wanted to post some pictures I took at Brigette’s funeral.  I wanted her children to see how many people loved their mommy, who still love her so much.

HEre is sweet Georgia and her papa.  25 pink balloons were released, one for each year of her life.

Montana, an awesome young man!  Brigette’s oldest.

I love this picture of Georgia.  She is skipping at the burial site with a flower from her mama’s casket, an angel from the casket and a ribbon that said “mommy” on it.  What a picture of innocence.

Sweet baby Maryland with 2 flowers from her mama’s casket.

Life is so hard.  But let me tell you something….my God is great.  My God is faithful.  My God is good.  My God is comfort.  My God is a healer.  My God is amazing.  My God is the father to the fatherless (or motherless).  My God will take care of His children.  My God will provide.





Please pray….

19 04 2010

My heart is breaking as I write this……my heart can barely hold in the pain and saddnes!  As many of you know, I worked at Gymboree for almost 5 years while in Ky.  During this time my dear friend, whom was hired the same day as me, Brigette Moulin I became fast and good friends!  We spent many days together with the kids, we went through the birth of 3 little ones together.   

Last night Brigette pasted away.  She had gone into a coma after having a seizure (updated from blood clot).  She did not survive.  She leaves behind 3 beautiful children.  Montana (age 7), Georgia (age 3) and Maryland ( 12 days old).    Please pray for all involved. 

My dear friend Brigette.





Disney World with an extra child…

23 01 2009

Well, it looks like we will be going to Disney with 4 children instead of 3. Granted we won’t have to pay an admission fee for this extra one. The new little one will be joining our family in September of 2009!

Our God is so good! We were excited to find out that another blessing was coming a few weeks ago. I was a little nervous to tell anyone due to the miscarriage in early December. But after a doctors appointment this week I saw a sweet little heartbeat!

Thank you God for this sweet little one!





Life Continues….

19 12 2008

Even when you are sad, happy, confussed and loonley snowed in, life continues. This week has been a very emotional week. I have cried more than I would like.

Say goodbyes to friends was so hard to do! Still remembering the miscarriage has been really hard this week. Moving the kids to a new state has been going fairly well. They asked if Ballard, McKay, Dylan and Nathan could come and play in the new 10 inches (we already had 4 inches when I got here). I had to explain that those friends are too far away to come and play.

Please pray for us. The church here has been presented with the position for Dave, but the actual vote doesn’t take place until the first week of January because of all the holidays etc. Thanksgiving, Christmas and New Years has pushed everything a little crazy. Which means we are homeless (staying at my moms until the house we are renting is ready, which is just after New Years) and technically jobless (well, 1/2 jobless, Dave is still in Louisville at UPS and waiting for the transfer).

We are just waiting and hanging out for God’s timing! Pray for our transition and emotions as we choose to be happy even when it is so hard to be.

I have just been thinking a lot on becoming a mom of 4.  I want more children so badly, but at the same time I don’t want to lose a child again either.  I don’t know if we just aren’t ready or if God is trying to push us another direction.  Dave and I have always considered adoption and have always wanted to.  If we have our 4th child then we would be closed to many countries.  They will not give children to families that have 4 or more children.  We have thought about adopting our 4th baby, then quickly getting pregnant with our 5th after the approval so that I could nurse both babies.  We just feel that an adopted baby would really need that good milk.

Oh I don’t know why I am writing this, maybe just to get my thoughts out so that I can read them and pray about them.  I just think that this miscarriage was telling me something, teaching me something.  I don’t want this child’s life to go unnoticed or unloved.  Does that even make sense?  Please tell me if I am just grieving and it will get better?





Thank you.

3 12 2008

We asked for prayers and we want to thank you for them.  On Sunday Dave and I found out that we would be expecting #4 in Aug.  Yesterday we knew something wasn’t right.  We went to the doctors, they did some tests and called back today to confirm that we have had a miscarriage.  This news wasn’t a surprise, after a long night last night.  Please pray for us, pray for me.  I am very saddened by this.  Thank you for lifting us up to our Father who loves us more than anyone.